User blog comment:PlantyThePottedPlant/Random Topic Blogging III: Blog Harder/@comment-4989298-20121220002812

5 minutes... 5 minutes have erased roughly 120 days...

I made my edit to continue my edit streak, but because of timezones, I was 5 minutes late. I could've sworn I hade till 8:00 to make my edit count for the day, but no.

I have a problem. Lack of motivation.

When I joined in April, my motivation was simply to be known by the community. Later, my motivation was to get 1,000 edits. And when Goldy said he was looking for an Admin, that was my motivation.

Alas, when the more-recent TDR fiasco turned out fine, Goldy announced he was no longer looking for a new Administrator; which was a crushing blow after all I did to get there.

I wasn't even wanting to stay here anymore, really. I had no reason to.

Eventually, though, I gave myself a goal: to crack the Top 10 on the contributor list. It wasn't that hard, actually. Once I was gunning for it, it only took about a month. And here I sit at a tie for 8th place; the top 5 being eons away.

All I've been going on is my edit streak, hoping to reach the Grand Phineas badge someday. Now, that too is gone. I have nothing to do. Nothing to work for...